._.

2011-10-31T00:23:00.000+08:00

Hypocrites never die out. :l

It's so easy to find someone who'll backstab you once given the chance, but so difficult to find a friend who'll stand by you. I mean, seriously
): the world seems like such an unfair place.

Today I read the newspaper and learnt of this person who threw his/her dog down the HDB flat.
What the heck is wrong with humanity now?
And now as I sit here and update this pointless and dying blog on my
Phone, I realised how insignificant one person is in this whole earth O.O
It's quite stupid how some people can think so highly of themselves and think that their insignificant being can actually affect the whole earth.
Total jokez. :P

My results are disappointing and I seriously don't think I'll be able to go far in life now ^^;; . Sigh, it's so difficult and stressful now because of the stupid and useless
Comparisons. I'll never match up! I don't care about reverse psychology because it'll just backfire. Seriously. I'm going to crumble under this immense pressure but thank god I'm not some weak weenie. I won't freaking crumble unless I want to. :P

My future is bleak! It's so difficult for it
To be brighter or whatever because I'm the type who studies and ends up getting disappointing grades. It's difficult to be motivated!! ): why
Am I so stupid LOL.

2011-10-20T20:00:00.001+08:00

Shagshagshag.

Today was quite alright, I guess.

No pictures though.

2011-10-14T06:09:00.001+08:00

I hate you.

2011-10-11T20:17:00.001+08:00

Why are you suddenly so cold and distant?

2011-10-09T21:36:00.000+08:00

I don't know why I have this sudden feeling to be updating my blog.

Tomorrow's the last day of exams and I ended up getting grounded.
Sigh.
I feel like a stupid milquetoast.

I love how things changed recently :)
But I don't know whether it's for the better or for the worse.
I don't care, actually. For now I'm focusing so much on my happiness.
It's weird because I'm actually observing my surroundings a little bit more.
I've also learnt how to be more quiet to observe things once in awhile.
I've figured out what many people are thinking through observation.
I think I've matured.
That's what I think, but I don't know.

I like how things are turning out. And, I hope that the bio paper tomorrow isn't killer.

2011-10-03T16:51:00.000+08:00

Pure Geog is (N).
Mixed feelings came billowing in as I observed every single little thing.

I'm quite sad, to be honest.
Because there are people who mug so hard and score well.
Don't mug and score well.
And there's me.
Straight score badly.
No matter what.
Just, score badly.
There's the E Math Paper 2 tomorrow.
And Pure Chem on Wednesday.

I'm not confident.
Not at all.
I suck at Math.
No matter how much I try, it never works out.
Not that I don't try Seriously.

Not that I'm not tired of failing.

2011-09-30T19:20:00.000+08:00

Haha that was funny.

I survived Social Studies. I applaud myself.
Pure Geog, I'm coming for you.
But for now, I shall rest and feed my fandom to One Piece.

2011-09-24T16:45:00.000+08:00

Thank you for teaching me so many things through your hate.
I've learnt that things like this doesn't only happen in drama serials.
It's copacetic, actually.
I've learnt that you're not how you look like.
Not to judge a book by it's cover.
But in the process that caused all this shit to happen,
I've actually experienced somethings that can even be akin to happiness.
It helped me to mature and see things from a different perspective.

People can find really, really stupid reasons to defend themselves.
Stupid idiots who think that their insignificant selves can affect my awesome life.
Sorry, you're wrong.
People can't do a shit to others.
Don't think so highly of yourself.

Heehee.
Some people are so naive it's funny.
So immature it's funny.

Update for my dead blog.
Bye.

2011-06-03T23:49:00.000+08:00

I'm still alive. (:

Went to Soo Jing's house today ! Haagen and Gorgon. ( don't know how to spell their names )

They were really cute and friendly and stuff XD

I like dogs. >w<

And it's like, doggy drool all over :DD

>w<
So.. I went to her house at like 1+.

I got lost and took the wrong bus DX

but it was still cool.

Then her dad drived us to her big house.

WITH HER BIG DOGS :D

Then once I got off the car they all came licking XD

SO CUTE <3

THANKS SOO JING ;) For giving me this cool big doggy experience OwO

Heheheheh bonus update, because this has been dead for SO LONG. D:<

2011-02-27T19:09:00.003+08:00

HI. :D .

Just updating cos I've nothing better to do,
AND,
I realised that I've left this place dead for a long time.
(:
I had a lot of tests recently and I'm not sure whether I've done well.
I don't even think that I've passed some. :l
Sec 3 life is HECTIC.
It's as if I have no time with myself anymore ~
I'm like,
MISSING MY HOME.
Seriously,
I reach home about 6+ everyday.
I didn't go to school on Saturday because I wasn't feeling well,
and I seriously missed how it felt to be at home on Saturdays in the morning.
Not that I'm complaining ><
SO,
Kinda busy with band and stuff, with SYF.
):
I think I failed my auditions.
The bad thing is, I lose my CCA points.
The good thing is, I get to spend more time on homework and my piano lessons :D
Sec 1s are.. uhm. I shall have no comments.
Now when I turn on the computer, I just go straight to facebook.
I have a lot of stuff to catch up on ><
But sometimes my annoying internet just dies. D:<

SO I PLAY PvZ. IT'S AWESOME >:D

I HATE that zombie with the stick thingy. But, go on, jump over my wallnut and you'll just get boomed.

TEEHEE. I ended up with THAT many suns.

THIS LOOKS SO AWESOME RIGHT ! :D

This guy never fails to crack me up :X

THEN MY ANNOYING TRAIL THINGY ENDED. ):

So I went back to facebook, and I'm addicted to some game called Wild Ones.

You're never too old for games ><

I hope everyone's doing well ~

Byebye :D

2011-01-17T18:32:00.001+08:00

I'm not lovesick, I'm sick of love.

Dead (:

I heard a teacher talking about school only being open for 8 days so far yesterday.
Counting today, 9.
School has been rather hectic, I shall say.
Getting used to a new class and a new environment isn't easy,
it's taking an emotional and mental toll on me, even though I don't really feel it, I guess.
My friends have been telling me that i'm very quiet.
'depressed'.

a state of low mood and aversion to activity that can affect a person's thoughts, behaviour, feelings and physical well-being. Depressed people may feel sad, anxious, empty, hopeless, helpless, worthless, guilty, irritable, or restless. They may lose interest in activities that once were pleasurable, experience overeating or loss of appetite, or problems concentrating, remembering details or making decisions; and may contemplate or attempt suicide. Insomnia, excessive sleeping, fatigue, loss of energy, or aches, pains or digestive problems that are resistant to treatment may be present.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Depression_(mood)
o_o
I'm not depressed,
don't worry :x

I don't think you all worry anyway.

17th January.

I'm starting to feel very tired.
And it's only like..
Idk, third week of the month?
I've got a geog test on thursday.
I don't think I'll have the time to study.
Desperate for luck, desperate for time.
I said Fuck in front of my mum.
Pure accident.
She glared at me and laughed.
The heck?
:L

PE was funny today.
I skipped it.
Not feeling well.

Yesterday someone told me something.
I think I should start distancing myself away from people now.
I get in between people too much now.

NYAA sucks. ):

2011-01-03T00:24:00.001+08:00

today my mum told me that I only make things harder for her.

2011-01-01T19:08:00.000+08:00

My blog's officially dead.
Trololol.

Three more days till school reopens,
I'm scared of my new class o_o
I haven't started on holiday homework.

I HAVE DECIDED TO WORK HARD NEXT YEAR.
HAHAHA.
(for now, I have determination. FOR NOW.)
I mean that's what I always say every year -.-
ANYWAY.
Recently band got exchange with Hougang.
Drills were like MAD.
Now my legs are like..
._.
IT WAS (surprisingly) FUN.
Yesterday made band banner.
AT AIRPORT.
T3.
;D
The toilet auntie ><
I DREW.
A TREBLE CLEF.
AND A MOCHI.
HAHAHA XDDD

School's starting :c

HAPPY NEW YEAR ! <3

Yuri, Wan Yu, Gilbert, Michelle, Faith, Joan. ;D

2010-12-06T20:03:00.001+08:00

Liebe Sie, Ich Liebe Dich. <3

I have left my blog empty for a very long time.

It's not as if I really care anyway.

Went out with my dad yesterday.

Had Japanese Buffet.

It was nice.

Went to the class chalet last week.

It was okay.

I cycled instead.

Then I went home.

Since I already updated,

Lebewohl. (:

liebe sie, kummern. (:

2010-11-27T00:13:00.000+08:00

Harry Potter with Joan! <3

First time we went out together O:
HI JOAN.
NEXT YEAR WE CELEBRATE OUR FIFTH YEAR ANNIVERSARY OK ? <3

Harry Potter was awesome.
AND I GOT ANNOYED WHEN THEY ENDED IT DX
JULYYYY.
Why does it seem so far.
:c

Popcorn is nice :D

AT TM NOW GOT ONE POKEMON THINGY :DDD
CAN GET PIKACHU EARS >3< b

LOL
My agong and ama talk to each other so funny :D
My ama keep scolding my agong :D
DAMN FUNNY SIA LOL.
My agong keep laughing o_o

2010-11-24T22:20:00.001+08:00

ONG

ZHENG

WEI.

Okay I updated with your nicenice name on it :D

lol jk, scroll down! O:

2010-11-24T22:18:00.000+08:00

LOL, jk! Don't kill me k <3

OKAY.
So I shall start with my post with TUESDAY.

23/11/2010, tuesday.

There was no band.

So I stayed at home(:

Woke up at around 11+,

then used the computer around 11.30.

Then I watched Bakemonogatari.

Hmm, awesome anime. Nice,nice.

Then later my sinus acted up.

Damn painful,

so I decided to go to sleep OwO

That was around 1+ , 2 ?

Then after that woke up, 5.15 already.

oAo

Feel like pig.

Then my mum called,

JUST to ask me to download Skype.

LOL!

Then she asked me why I was yawning over the phone,

I told her I just woke up,

"AIYO, you ah, later grow fat. Sleep and sleep."

-3-

Then later she come back home complain to my ama.

"SEE LA, SHE SLEEP AND SLEEP. Mummy, can you tell her not to sleep?"

Then my ama never reply.

So I was like "HAHA ama ignore you."

THEN MY AMA WAS LIKE

"SEE I TOLD YOU."

.___."

Received sms from psl senior, asking whether I was free for PSL duty.

But I told him see first, because I not sure whether can wake up.

I decided !

To only go if I can wake up tomorrow.

24/11/2010, wednesday. (today :P)

Woke up to go to psl duty,

I WAS LATE.

ZHENG WEI (SEE I MENTIONED YOUR NICENICE NAME XD)

Waited for me at mamashop there O:

Then we were BOTH LATE XDDD

So after doing our duty,

we left school,

with his friend, Christina.

I didn't need to go home so early,

I went job-hunting with them.

Not exactly.

I didn't look for a job.

They were the ones looking for jobs XD

I walked behind them when they were talking about IDK WHAT.

Then later went to NUM.

LOLOL,

the guy was like

"Only guys can apply for this job..."

Then Christina was like

"SEXIST SIA!!"

LOLOL.

then we walk a lot of places,

got Mad Jack

got Cotton On

got some computer shop, $6/h

got coffee bean, $10/h, full time.

got Fish&Co.

GOT WATSONS.

HAHAHA.

XDD

Then Zheng Wei handed in his application form at NUM.

and Mad Jack.

And Fish&Co. :D

then after that, Christina had to go to...

idk where.

Okay then left me and Zheng Wei.

So after that we go walk walk abit.

Then took 21 together and went home.

EH zheng wei,

you move house i very poor thing eh,

cannot sleep already.

You so fast alight.

LOLOL.

Once I reach home.

I felt like sleeping,

stupid sinus

@)(#*(@*^#&%$

then didn't sleep.

Did tuition homework instead.

then now,

just came back from tuition.

P.S : I think i'm falling sick DX

LOTS OF LOVE,

CLARABELLE KAORU KIRKLAND/ BEILSCHMIDT.

2010-11-22T19:50:00.002+08:00

Today I came home and fell asleep on the floor.

I had a dream ~

ABOUT CURRY.

LOL.

I was going to eat the curry then I woke up.

Damn should have eaten it.

Then I tried going back to sleep to eat it.

LOLOL.

I could smell the curry eh!

IT SMELT NICE.

Like beef curry ^^

Why do dreams never come true ):

BECAUSE I DREAMT I WAS DROWNING IN COOKIES AND CREAM ICE-CREAM.

WOOHOO.

I went swimming yesterday.

The sun was AWESOME.

But I didn't get tan. (wtf?)

How long must I stay in the sun to even turn BROWN.

I was there for like 5 hours STRAIGHT.

Why am I so hard to cook.

You know those stupid websites you go to

with the stupid fighting adverts on top.

I just went there then the song was like BOOM

I was like Fuck.

HAHA.

I'm becoming so vulgar.

I shall try to not be vulgar, tsk.

Dk whether can succeed,

that was my (new year) resolution LAST year.

I failed XD

But I passed on the

I DON'T WANT WHITE HAIR thing.

HAHAH :DD

So awesome ^^b

NEXT YEAR GOT WHITE HAIR I SURE CRY I TELL YOU.

I was hardly stressed.

LOLOL.

I'm listening to my ama watching AI.

Stupid bitchy women in the show pissing me off making me scold profanities at them.

Inwardly.

Stupid things I read on the internet making me laugh

Inwardly.

Sweet nothings that make my heart smile not me.

HEEHEE.

IT TAKES A LOT TO MAKE ME SMILE.

Okay maybe a LITTLE.

Because any random person who trips over a rock makes me smile.

Miss a step I smile.

You think nobody saw you tripping?

THINK AGAIN, HAHAHAH :B

Y-u-no-guy.tumblr.com
"I sick"
"Y u no say feel better."

Yeah why doesn't anybody ask,
LOLOL.

I want a freaking gigantic soft teddy bear to hug :D

christmas christmas christmas XD

I smell food.

And my stomach feels empty heehee.

BUT i'm not hungry.

I only figured out how being hungry feels at the start of this year.

KILL ME NOW HAHA.

TODAY.

I LOST MY PHONE.

Then I realised it was in my hand.

"YOU HAVE ALWAYS BEEN AN IDIOT" -Joan.

Joan,

you're evil Dx

iamnotanidiot.

WHO THINKS I'M AN IDIOT.

I DARE YOU TO TAG MY TAGBOARD NOW.

And I'll tickle you to death DX

2010-11-19T01:14:00.000+08:00

Today I finally said something about it.

When you told me to 'laugh properly' again.

What's your definition of 'laugh properly'?

Everytime I laugh you say that.

usually i'd just shut up.

But now,

I won't allow you to take away my right to laugh anymore.

IN YOUR FACE ! :DDDDDD

I am so happy ((:

But..

Not sure whether this would last long.

Tsk.

Maybe one day I won't be able to laugh anymore.

Tssssk.

ANYWAY.

I so long never post already.

Lalala.

Sorry ><

Watching anime :XX

Yesyes I watch anime call me lame if you want DDDX

AND YOU KNOW WHAT?

THEIR SHOWING KPOP ON ANIMAX.

ANIMAX = JAPANESE STUFF. MAINLY ANIME RIGHT.

WHY GOT KPOP !

HUHH.

WTHELL.

I HEARD MY MUM SAY THE F WORD HAHAHA.

My thumbdrive spoil then she was fixing it

AND SHE MADE IT WORSE

She was like

F..***

I BURST OUT LAUGHING LOOOL.

MUMMY YOU ROCK XDDDD

Might be getting an iMac.

Yipeeee.

I recommend fairy tail (:

My friend got bored of it though.

WHYYY !!!

-Because you'd be gone soon.

2010-11-10T22:11:00.002+08:00

see more Durr

HAHAHA THIS ALMOST MADE ME DIE OF LAUGHTER :D

...

SERIOUSLY LOL.

Okay anyway ^^

MY AMA CAME BACK YESTERDAY AT LIKE 12++ Reach 1 AM ;D

She was knocking on the door XD

She couldn't even walk properly.

AND SHE BROUGHT BACK HONGKONG MRT CARD !!

YAY HONGKONG ^~^

Teeheeee. (:

Today was AWESOME.

Although I stayed at home the whole day.

Thanks to that website on top.

HAHAHAH.

Laugh until my ama call me shen jing.

Mehh XD

2010-11-08T19:22:00.000+08:00

Who has started on holiday homework?

((((((((((((:

NOT ME, hahahah.

Anyway....

Life is boring.

Joan's going to Taiwan.

HAVE FUN JOAN, REMEMBER TO BUY MY PANDA TEDDY IF THERE'S ONE ^^ <3 WO AI NI ~

okok,

I go to band practices okay,

but apparently my playing is (N)

Conductor so pekcek until don't care us le.

Sorry I can't play such high notes -.-

Alone at home,

Granma's coming home tomorrow, yay.

Couldn't see her off when she went to China,

seriously want to see her come home.

But I have band.

Ch-- .

Haven't been updating.

Blablabla.

Ice-cream and cookies and mashed potato with cheese.

Gonna grow fatter ><

Save meeeeee.

I'm damn bored.

BORED.

B-O-R-E-D.

And I'm seriously friend-less.

YURI, WAN YU, WHEN CAN YOU LEAVE YOUR HOUSES !?

Wan yu, get your stupid phone fixed. D:

Need .. more .. fun D:

F is for friends who do stuff together

U is for you and me,

N is for anywhere at anytime at all down here in the deep blue sea.

I wonder where my fun went. :/

I miss you shitloads and shitloads.

"You weren't in love with me, and you're leaving,"

2010-11-04T19:30:00.000+08:00

I was watching popeye.
And in the show, popeye's "sons" i think, they look like him like, four of them.
Helped him plant something called

PINE NIPPLES.

No kidding.

((((:

I got into 3E2.

yay (:

2010-11-04T18:48:00.000+08:00

If you think that you're right all the time,

I'm telling you you're not.

If you don't listen to my point of view,

I'll just say that I have no comment.

Because I am never right.

And you are never wrong.

2010-11-02T20:46:00.001+08:00

Bored. :c

2010-10-30T19:47:00.000+08:00

I'm scared D:

I'm alone at home.

Rawr.

I woke up at 4:35 AM last night.

I couldn't go back to sleep after that o_o

HAHAHAH.

So I rolled around and stared at everything around me.

I MEAN IT.

I HUGGED MY BOLSTER AND I STARED AT IT O_O

Well I wasn't scared last night.
Maybe it's meant for me to spend time with my house.

Because my ama's going overseas for one week.

(aaaah)

ALONE AT HOME RAWR DDDDDDD:

I am scared.

)))))))):
Hope someone calls me and talks to me for like 1 hour + but my mum will nag.

Scared scared scared.

I'm scared i'm scared i'm scared rawr. :c

2010-10-29T15:07:00.001+08:00

Streaming ~ OwO

Cannot get into the class I want one lor.

Don't think can.

z -.-

I hate school <:

I hate studies <:

I hate my life.

And my internet is so slow.

Annoying shit.

My anime not loading D:

I feel like swearing O_O

But I shall be a good girl and not swear.

"good" girl :DDDDD

Load you shit I've been loading you for 15 minutes.

AND I USUALLY DON'T EVEN HAVE TO LOAD WHAT IS YOUR PROBLEM TODAY.

I hate how our lives revolve around exams D:<

Oh yeah I still have ice-cream in my freezer OwO

So long never eat le.

c: c: c:

ICE-CREAM !

Omg D: I slept 13 hours today OwO

Like becoming pig.

Oink ^^
My ama and agong are debating how old I was when I came OwO

And now my ama's complaining that i've been making her angry for 13 years.

AND THAT I SHOULD BE A NUN AND BALD.

HAHAHAH.

AND SHE'S COMPLAINING O_O

HAHAHAHAHA.

(Oh and you know what I stopped in between writing this post and went to watch the anime I thought the main character died so I cried like siao but she didn't :D yay. AND IT'S LOADED :D)

2010-10-19T19:51:00.000+08:00

I cried.

ahhh Yes I did ):

My marks

SUCKED.

Freaking C5 for maths.

NOT EVEN AN A1

OMG.

Level position like..

SHIT.

3E3 range.

I need to get into E2.

But I couldn't.

So many people can go E1,

they want go E2.

Damn it.

I'm not even CLOSE to getting into E2.

Planning on trying.

But..

Cannot la.

Omg.

JUST GO E1 LA.

Then I cry sia.

Cry like siao.

I want take Bio.

Marine Biologist must take bio right?

If cannot take Bio,

Then cannot be Marine Biologist already what, right?
I since primary 4 wanted to be marine biologist.

Then cannot le.

Everything

just

got

crushed.
...
and with my c5 i might not even get i e3.

God,

please

bless

me.

I cried my heart out today.

I cried a lot today.

I cried a lot a lot today.

I cried like shit today.

2010-10-14T16:21:00.002+08:00

NAOI-CHAN ?

Mehh.

I was given that name by Yuri and WanYu aka Tohtoh :D

Lame la they all ):

Say I look like Naoi when I wore Yuri's hat. ):

So they decided to call me Naoi-Chan.

And I am his genderbend.

-_- .

Naoi is cute :D

I hate my results ):

2010-10-12T22:18:00.000+08:00

GRADUATION.

Everything seems to be about it now,

since exams are over.

Graduation from Sec2 onto Sec3.

Not knowing how it feels,

in a new class a new environment.

Maybe I'll become some anti-social shit there.

Then get hated by the whole class and all that shit.

Then go to recess and lunch all alone.

Do projects all alone..

Okay nevermind.

Sec4s are graduating in 3 days ~

Baibai seniors,

Wish you good luck ^^

Annnnd,

wow o-o

Angel Beats made me cry like shit -.-

I swear LOL.

The anime is (Y)

But it's sad.

LOL.

I cried I cried I cried.

2010-10-08T16:41:00.001+08:00

the dog is so cute O_O

but it's so fierce.

It's kept barking ):

I want to play with a friendly dog D:

Okok ,

today maths ...

DEATH ^^

Sure fail (N)

I am currently dying of boredom ^^

And Wan Yu said I was emo.

2010-10-06T15:14:00.003+08:00

this is going to be an emotional post.
(:
Continue reading if you want.

I don't like my life.

I was born at the wrong time.

Close friends may know why.

Distant friends may not.

I hate my life.

I bet many people are thinking,

"there are people's lives that are much worse out there, more worse than yours,"

I don't care, I need to rant.

So shut up.

I'm not forcing you to read.

You can text me any questions.

Add me on msn and if I know you I'll text you okay,

-_-

Just let me rant.

Okay,

I know it's not her fault.

But it's not mine either.

Can all of you just stop making it look as if it's my fault ?

i'm going to breakdown.

Because it's not.

I hate trying to act all happy.

When I'm not.

I'm so depressed.

One day I think my world will collapse.

I hate it,

I hate it when all of you compare me to her.

I hate it when she says that people discourage her.

And then I wonder,

aren't I worse.

I've read something about others always saying their worse off,

but really.

I know I don't know what she's going through.

But,

when everything's against you.

You'll know how I feel.

Every conversation,

You must bring her up.

During dinner,

you say that my life is better than hers because I can eat homecooked food and she can't.

It's not as if I WANT it to be this way.

I know she's independent.

I know she's studious.

You all think she's better than me.

You all say I "so easy give black face."

You never see her doing it,

so you think she's better,

RIGHT ?

But

You

Don't

Know

How

She

Really

Is.

Because,

You

Don't

See

Her

Often.

I don't hate her.

But I don't love her either.

I don't know how it feels to love someone.

I don't know how it feels to be loved.

Maybe,

I don't know how to love.
But it's so painful.
I don't know why,
I feel so sad.

What

have

done

wrong ?

She was hardly scolded.
The tone you all use to talk to her is so different.
So,
so
different.
When I was young,
someone once asked me,
"Could you switch places with her ? Just for one week ? She's more fun."

I understood.

Young children DO understand what you're saying.

I don't want to say this.
But I hate the way all of you are treating me.
I'm becoming colder towards all of you,
and I know one of you noticed.
I'm becoming indifferent.
But not to my friends.
(:

You criticize everything I do.
You don't let me laugh at home,
You don't let me talk to my friends over the phone,
You don't let me sing,
I know I can't sing well.

You don't let me play.
Because,
My voice is irritating.

You criticize my drawings.

You criticize my typing.
You say that I type too loudly.

You criticize my face

I know I'm ugly.

Enough.

You criticize every single thing I do.
I ate only 2 sweets and you asked me not too eat too many.
Stop controlling me.
It's annoying.
I'm fourteen.
Is two a lot ?
Stop asking me to eat shit,
damn you.

When I can't find my things,
All you can do is ,
SHOUT.
"ALWAYS NEVER PUT YOUR THINGS PROPERLY."
I'm already so pissed.
And all you do is piss me off even more.
Yes, you can say I have a bad attitude.

Ask me if I care.

I love my friends I can confide in.

And I hope they can see things from my point of view.

Maybe some of them may not,

and think that I'm in the wrong.

I don't know,

You never know what people may think of you.

I'm talking about many people here.

I feel like a loser.
I don't have any decent messages.
They're just..
Random shit.
I only have like.
2 people texting me.
And you know what.
Nobody will text me unless I text them.
Yeah,
how pathetic is that shit.
Envy all those people who seem as if they're texting everytime.
My mum scolds me if I text too much.
But i'm only texting like,
1 person who ACTUALLY replies.
Many people ignore my texts.
I think I'm annoying.
Sorry ya.
And I always send texts to wrong people.
(Y)

I hope all of your lives are better.

Thanks for reading.

this song actually depicts my life.

it suits my life so perfectly I felt so happy when I saw it.

Enjoy.

And it's in Japanese.

Yes,

Love

Anime.

The only thing I know how to love,

besides my friends that is.

2010-10-02T20:29:00.000+08:00

Confused.

Amaths or no amaths ?

My tuition teacher said I wouldn't be able to make it.

My school teacher said I could make it.

In order to get into the class I want,

Amaths is compulsory.

if I don't get into the class I want,

I won't be able to be what I want.

....

So how leh ? ):

Anywayyy.

TODAY.

WAS.

Okay la

HAHAHA.

Just now on the way home I saw this woman.

And she looks like my granma.

So I called out to her.

And she wasn't my granma.

AND SHE KEPT STARING AT ME.

EMBARRASSING :x

Then before I went for tuition.

I was standing in the bus.

Then this old woman.

step on my leg.

Then she ask me to move.

Then i was like.

thinking.

YOU STEPPING ON MY LEG HOW I MOVE O_O

Then I just..

wiggled out

I am a good wiggler.

o.o does wiggler mean something ? o-o

Heeheeee.

You get my meaning :/

Oh ya !

I remembered something.

I THINK I'M BECOMING BAD.

That time I was in the toilet o-o (not in school)

then later.

This girl

Wash her hands.

Then shake her hands.

THEN THE WATER SPLATTERED ON ME.

THEN I TURN AROUND.

AND I GLARED AT HER.

I GLARED !!

UNKNOWINGLY.

THEN I WAS LIKE.

"Wth I so fierce o-o"

HAHAHAHA.

I give people faces that I don't know I had ok .

HAHAHA.

Don't take offence or think that I hate you or whatever shit.

If I hate you I see you I will give you black face.

DROPPED DEAD LAUGHING :X

HAVE FUN.

HEEHEEE.

2010-10-01T16:05:00.000+08:00

I AM SO HONEST.

AND I STUDIED !!!!!!!!! :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

That ish why I have not updated this dead/dying blog. :3

NOW STILL EXAM PERIOD.

I'M USING THE COMPUTER.

Pinch

scold

hit

meeee. :c

I AM LAZY TO STUDY

GRRRR

I STUDIED THIS WHOLE WEEK.

THIS IS A TREAT !!!

Just now I take 21 home.

Then I wanted climb up stairs.

I cut into the woman in front of me cos I couldn't stop in time.

I'm so sorry...

I feel so rude D:

Then she keep staring at me

.____.

i feel so guilty.

LOL.

You know this morning I took 21 Oo

then I was lazy to climb the stairs up

then later

the right at the back

All seats taken except the middle one.

I just PLOP sit there cos the bus moved

-_-

then everybody stared at me

then i was like

o_o

So weird right ?

I realised nobody will sit at that kind of spot

._.

paiseh only.

Heehee.

studious :D

-lieslieslies-

Heehee.

2010-09-25T22:08:00.001+08:00

I HAD STEAMBOAT !

I love asparagus o-o

it's soft :D

and tofu.

yes tofu <3

this was random. heehee.
Xiang <3

My life is so boring, da ze~
Shit,
i'm like used to this
da ze~
thing O_O
LOL ~

Do you know that in Gundam 00,
there's a person called
Alejandro ?

Heehee,
weird da ze~

I AM TIRED
AND
SLEEPY.
AND IT'S ONLY 10:18.
I WOKE UP AT 12:30 PM TODAY. :D
I SLEPT AT 2:00 AM ~~LAST NIGHT.~~
TODAY.
And I'm bored
-_-
There's something wrong with facebook
o___o
And I think it's only my facebook got problem.
Bloody hell -.-

My life,
is boring.
My life,
sucks.
In my life,
I'm alone.
In my life,
everyone's so cold ):

2010-09-25T00:42:00.000+08:00

Currently 12:30,

as I type this post the timing will be later. :P

Something very wrong with my English.

I am tired.

I don't want to sleep.

...

I've been thinking a lot lately O:

Yay ,

I sound so mature ^^v

Accomplishment !

I bet I just sounded childish ):

Nowadays ,

I KEEP DRINKING BUBBLETEA.

And...

I LOVE ICE-CREAM ! ^^v

My mother is annoyed with me D:

Cos I keep asking her buy ice-cream...

...

2010-09-19T19:59:00.003+08:00

I STUDIED,

FOR 5 MINUTES :D

I got bored. :D

THIS IS HEAVEN <3

HAAGEN DAZS SPOON !!

Heaven <3

I have to eat it bit by bit :c

If not I'll finish it in 2 days ...

LOL.

2010-09-18T18:11:00.002+08:00

BEACH CLEANING.

I WOKE UP AT SEVEN :D

Was supposed to be there at 7:25.

I did something very smart.

TAKE A TAXI.

LOL ! ^^

Should I eat another mooncake ? :D

Today reach there then sit sit.

Then later go off

MUST WALK.

Walk until leg so tired.

Pick up TRASH.

THEN I DREW IN THE SAND.

Bloody hell so many plastic bags

-____-

( Since I want to become a marine biologist I did a very dumb thing. )

The plastic bag cannot pull out.

I use hand pull.

Still cannot pull out,

I go dig.

Dig until can pull out.

Then Mr Gng say better not.

then Alton still want pull with the tongs.

HIS TONGS BEND.

LOL.

Then later on the way back,

WALK AGAIN D:<

Hais.

Reach home,

Tried to sleep.

Cannot sleep.

I cannot sleep in afternoons :c

Unless i'm feeling pain

o-o

Sadistic feeling O:

My stomach and intestines are officially

WEAK.

Just now I was watching some show.

I forgot the channel.

The sperm whale EXPLODED.

Then the intestines everything all fly out.

The blood squirt out like

PSSSSSH.

Then the car 30m away ,

whole thing red.

Eeew ):

Poor whale ! D,:

I have an ulcer on my tongue and it's so annoying.
I feel like BITING it off.
SADISTIC FEELING AGAIN.
Does this happen to any of you ?
o-o

I have a craving for ice-cream now.

Baibai ! :D

I haven't started studying yet :P

Koten sanshuun.

2010-09-17T16:38:00.002+08:00

RUBBISHY POST. :x

Today school is OK .

After school met Joan then went out of school pass my senior something o.o

Go back school for HMT still not late.

Not bad.

I'm eating MOONCAKE now.
The yam one

I wanted wait till the actual day then eat,

but mummy say will spoil :<

So eat first lor.

zzz I can't finish ONE D:

Today yesterday day before

Keep gastric.

Sian.

NOW MY STOMACH KEEP MAKING NOISE.

ZZZ.

Tomorrow Beach Cleaning.

SATURDAY.

Wake up at 5:45.

Tired la.

-.-

I've been watching Bleach lately . Hmm :/

kon is damn cute and Ichigo is gross :D

I like Grimmjow

I used to like Byakuya, teehee.

Okay i still like Byakuya :D

I hate Hitsugaya. O:

I don't dislike shotas, I just dislike hitsugaya :D

Stop comparing him to byakuya :D

Grimmjow <3

"Whether you're a Human, or a Shinigami or an Arrancar, anyone who looks at me like they're underestimating my power, I'll smash every one of 'em into oblivion."

"Those eyes. You're always like that. No matter how much I beat you up, you've got this sense about you that you're going to beat me. You think you're freaking stronger than me! I can't freakin' stand it!"

"They're all cowards, every damn one of them. Whatever. I'll just consume them. As they become my flesh and blood, they will see beyond. I... I am the king!"

"Shut the hell up. Enough with the screamin' kid. Next time you make a fuss, I'm gonna blast you into next week!"

2010-09-15T17:34:00.000+08:00

EXAMS.

You know what ?

I haven't started studying.

I don't get it

why do people study 4 weeks before their exams .

Seriously ...

Maye cos I'm not the type who's so

...

"excited" over exams.

I'm still in a holiday mood.

Seriously -____-

But if I don't study soon

I might get into deep trouble :o

Form teacher called me out to "talk" to me.

How's my hand , Fine.

Started studying , No.

Could I start studying during weekends , Okay.

Am I going to study , it's my decision.

If you don't start studying you might not have enough time.

I know.

I don't have enough time for everything ,

time's passing too quickly.

has

got

slow

down .

2010-09-08T17:48:00.000+08:00

I AM SICK AGAIN o__o

There's something wrong with my body :c

I woke up at 12 PM today O:

Siao.

Damn late,

NOW I SINUS AGAIN @()#*@()&#@*(^#@*&#^

Tonight going to see doctor.

Seriously I think the doctor pissed off le :P

heehee.

You make me believe i'm living a teenage dream.

2010-09-07T14:03:00.004+08:00

NO MORE COOKIES AND CREAM D:

So I ate Ben and Jerry's Vanilla instead :D

Finish in 15 minutes ^-^

and then ...

The last time I went to NTUC

HAAGEN DAZS RAN OUT OF COOKIES AND CREAM

DISASTERRRRRRRR D:<

Then is seriously don't have ):

Too bad leee D:

Then now my fridge all Ben and Jerry's strawberry shortcake thingy.

I forgot the name T-T

I want vanilla or cookies and cream or something T-T

I not used to eating strawberry :c

I SHALL TRY.

^-^

I did my homework

then i went to sleep cos headache.

Or was it sinus.

Yeah it was sinus.

Pain like SHIT

I swear

Then sleep wake up, okay le.

NOW PAIN AGAIN D:<

Painkillers don't work.

;_;

Suffer sia.

I remember p5 ,

pain until cry.

...

Stupid sinus go away T^T

Ice-cream ice-cream ice-cream <3

2010-09-05T23:19:00.001+08:00

i'm still awake.

2010-09-04T22:50:00.000+08:00

I CUT MY HAIR O:

Actually I find it nice :D

Wow this morning I on my phone around 1+.

Then sudden;y,

get spam called ! O:

3 people call me.

One after another ~

Ask me go out watch movie.

I want go leh ):<

Then stupid lor,

sick ._.

dumb.

it seriously sucks to be sick ):

Stupid runny nose D:

Teehee.

Today not say very fun ,

nothing happen O:

I HAVE DECIDED TO EAT ICE-CREAM TOMORROW ^^

Mummy SHOULD be allow ^^

o.o

Today I watch animax they showing Kaze no Stigma.

I watch finish le o:

they showing the katherine mcdonald that episode ==

Still long ~

That show nice.

I'm not studying YET.

kill me ._.

2010-09-03T17:36:00.000+08:00

D:<

OMG I THINK THE PHRASE

"An apple a day keeps the doctor away."

IS JUST SOMETHING TO MAKE CHILDREN EAT THEIR FRUITS.

IT'S NOT TRUE

I'M STILL SICK D:<

Ehh anyway I think the doctor see me until he bored already.

LOL !

Now I got gastric.

....

Something made it worse...

COUGH CANNOT EAT ICECREAM.

NUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU.

Okay la, today after school i got buy.

DON'T TELL ANYBODY D:<

Then later take 21.

Then on the way the bus drive past cake shop.

Then wan yu was saying..

"THE BREAD HERE VERY NICE."

So I was like, okay lor, go buy.

Then she say she no money, then i say I lend her lor.

Then later

we alight at the next stop.

WALK BACK :D

Then she buy her sausage bread.

THEN WE TAKE THE 21,

GOT MR LEONG

D:
He sleep until leg open open ==
then his other leg all over the place.
then he sitting outside seat.
...
HE ALIGHT SAME STOP AS US D:<

THEN I WAS LIKE.
LOL STALKER :B

2010-09-01T15:47:00.001+08:00

SICK AGAIN !?

Wow this is so awful O:

I was just sick like.

last month ?

Fever last month ?

Or last last month.

THEN NOW SICK AGAIN D:<

Walao my throat damn itchy DDDD:

Can stick my hand in and scratch,

HAHAHAHA.

( Fisherman's friend ? :D )

LOL,

Drink water HELPS :DD

I feel so weak o-o
BUT I'M NOT I JUST FEEL WEAK D:<
If you think I'm weak I'll tickle you T^T
Tickle you until you roll on floor T^T
I hate runny nose !

And come on, she's more of a flirt than me ehs ? but nobody said anything about her. I am just the poor victim :P Poor me ! D:

2010-08-30T18:22:00.002+08:00

HI I'M A FLIRT

Go out eat lunch with friend = flirt ?

Live one block away, go home together = stead ?

Might as well say every guy I talk to is my stead lor.

Rumours are rubbish.

And you actually believed ?

2010-08-27T17:36:00.000+08:00

That would have made me laugh,

seriously.

like just laugh my ass off.

but,

I didn't,

WHY ?

I hate feeling so frustrated and wonder about what to do.

I hate this retarded feeling.

2010-08-26T10:27:00.001+08:00

BAND PERFORMANCEE.

I eat painkiller and play ><"
Heehees.
My short thumb :x

Very happy lehs :D

Got flower some more ^^v

Real one !

:DD

Aiyo,

then my hand got strained ._.

MC two days,

2 weeks MC from band and PE.

Then now so pain

;_;

Going back to school tomorrow,

Hais !

Painkillers FTW <3

Sorry, so long never update.

Actually got nothing to update about lehs :L

Goodluck for prelims tomorrow ( I THINK ) sec4 seniors ! :D

2010-08-20T19:11:00.001+08:00

PLEASE JUST GET HIM OUT OF OUR CLASS.

Like seriously please just get him out.

Idk what I did to him and he started attacking me.

Self denfence,

my finger become like that.

Apply abit of pressure on my thumb,

my wrist pain.

Swollen until,

I press my finger,

I can't feel pain.

It's like numb already.

It's not pain,

but it's funny.

I don't like this feeling at all.

Pain + something else.

PAINFUL LAAA.

Shit my left hand is useless.

><"'

Today was pretty ok,

I guess.

Besides getting injured

-_-

Seriously,

):<

MY FINGER IS FUNNY !!

2010-08-18T19:20:00.000+08:00

I'm seriously trying my best not to emo in blog posts :D

So I shall control. :L

But I seriously need to emo to someone DD:

And I hope the someone can listen to the same complaints over and over again.

...

Today got scolding by Chinese teacher again.

WHAT DID I DO TO HER.

I was just sitting there.

DOING MY WORK.

And she called me out after scolding my friend.

THEN SHE CALLED ME OUT FOR NO REASON.

SHE SAID I DIDN'T BRING MY TEXTBOOK.

BUT IT WAS ON THE TABLE

AND I BROUGHT IT TO SHOW IT TO HER.

AND I STILL GET A SCOLDING.

My other friend SO DAMN INNOCENT.

Also get scolded.

Then she cry cos she was so innocent.

THEN SHE GET SCOLDED FOR CRYING.

THEN SHE SCOLDED MY OTHER FRIEND

AND ANOTHER ONE.

THEN 4 OF US STOOD IN FRONT OF THE CLASS.

WHAT DID I DO.

SHE SAY COS I NEVER BRING TEXTBOOK EHS (!)

SERIOUSLY !! ><"

Anyway I don't think many people read my blog,

so is it okay to emo ? :/

2010-08-15T18:09:00.006+08:00

YOG WAS AWESOME.

LYO'S SO CUTE <:

Sorry, my hp camera sucks (:

see, torch bearer :B

Before they come in the lion stand there wait O:
Got laser some more lehs :D

The two my friend :D
See how many people there O:

After they announce all the countries, the flag bearers need go up o-o

The flag bearer on top o.o Can see ? :D

The monster the puppet. Scary right ! ):

I think my hand was shaking.
Uhmmm.
Parade of athletes :D
I SEE JAPANNNN ! <3
The white and blue one :D

Idk why slanted :L

YOG FLAME ! :D
WHAT IS THAT LANTERN THINGY AHS !

2010-08-12T19:02:00.002+08:00

LIES.

So many lies in so little time.

Why does everybody lie to me.

Just admit it,

it won't kill you.

Nothing's right.

Nothing's right, right now.

I hope everything passes.

I hope this is just a phase.

):

OMG I'M ALONE AT HOME.
><"
End of common tests.
Woohoo (:
Going to watch the YOG opening with my sister tomorrow.
<:

I'm starting to lose my friends.
Where'd you all go,
why'd you all go.
Threw me here.
....
Everybody seems to be happy.

everybody seems to be happy.

Happy birthday sister <3

good luck for prelims, sec4 seniors <:

./edit.

But sometimes when you know you have friends by you,
it's just so damn awesome (:
Thanks for standing by me even if I know it or not.
I love you <3

2010-08-08T23:05:00.000+08:00

DON'T LIE,

OH DON'T LIE (:

I'd really like to believe that you guys really missed me,

I'd really like to believe that you guys really care.

But you know something ?

I don't know whether to believe or not anymore.

Scold me or badmouth me or whatever shit.

I don't know anymore,

all of you suddenly started ignoring me and all that shit.

And now you tell me you're sorry.

And it's not even from your own mouth.
It's not even face to face.

You know something ?

Everything was just a lie.

I wasn't meant to be with you all anyway.

Maybe I'm destined to be a loner.

Whatever, okay ?

You all are still my friends.

It's just that I can't be so close with all of you anymore.

2010-08-06T20:38:00.000+08:00

ALL CLOUDS REMIND ME OF ICE-CREAM.

AND ICE-CREAM IS THE BEST :D

This morning took 21 to school.

Then later stomach uncomfortable lazy climb stairs sit at bottom deck :D

I usually sit at upper deck ma :P

Then sms Eng Jian cos he sick.

HE WAKE UP DAMN EARLY O:

Then later reach school just nice (:

This morning clouds so niceee

Look like vanilla ice-cream ((((:

Today okok ah.

Whole time class doing hamper,

I sit there listen music, sleep.

With Stomach ( Belle ) <3

Not my fault,

I over there like extra :x -'-

LOL.

I am so sorry (:

I take penknife play.

LOL.

DON'T THINK TOO FAR.

I PLAY ONLY (:

Never start to draw on my hands ;D

Heees.

After that go band,

fun sia.
:DDDDDD

No teachers no conductors no nothingggg.

SUPER FUN <3

Play the song come out quite nice sia o.o

Then come home.

some people just hurt you so bad.

Without them even knowing it.

2010-08-04T17:46:00.000+08:00

Loner life ain't that bad. o-o

Mixing around with different kinds of people are fun [:

And sometimes when you don't give a shit about anything and end up being late in almost every lesson you hate you just love it [:

I realised I haven't been paying attention in class lately.

I've either been playing with my shoelaces ,

talking ,

doodling ,

or just sleeping behind my literature book.

The only time when I actually listen is during History.

And I do not like History.

Eh ,

Come on.

I don't like school at all.

Almost got a table thrown at me by some school bully.

Oh well. o-o

Die then die :x

Nobody will be sad ,

right ? [:

Eh ,

I am officially homosexual :x

SERIOUSLY.

2010-07-31T22:51:00.000+08:00

I LOVE MY BIRTHDAY THIS YEAR ((:

BIRTHDAY SURPRISE.

SUPER AWESOME <3

I LOVE ALL MY FRIENDSSSS :DDDD

3o/o7/1o

Went to school,

took 21.

Then later reach school,

A lot of happy birthdays (:

And thenn.

during Chinese,

teacher say who talk must stand outside class.

I like idiot sia,

During class keep take people's picture then laugh

THEN TEACHER ASK ME STAND OUTSIDE.

Then later I outside,

i walk around then I go play with the curtain and window.

Got scolded ):

Then she ask me sit down on the floor.

So I sit on the floor at the door there.

THEN SHE SCOLD ME.

Say she don't want see my leg.

Okay suah ):

i sit there use handphone.

Thennn.

I forgot :D

Okay then after school.

GOT CAKE !!! <3

( forgot take pic D: )

THEN CAKE FIGHT IN CANTEEEN.

WOOHOOOOO.

Piak here piak there

throw here throw there

run here run there ~.~

Then later washed up.

Then went chinese shirt wet wet,

teacher scold me again D:

Then later after class.

CAKE FIGHT AGAIN !!

YAAAY.

Whole face full of cake :x

IT WAS DAMN FUN <3

Then later went E!Hub eat.

LOOK AT WHAT BELLE AND I MADE :D

Then there was this girl who STOOD there to see us -.-

Literally.

she was listening to everything we were saying.

._.

Then later I was like,

COLOUR THE DOGGY.

Then she was like,

I THOUGHT IT WAS A BEAR.

Wth -.-

31/o7/1o <3

WENT TUITION ( LOL )

Then later went to meet my sister.

BOUGHT MY CAKE.

Then later went home,

then went to birthday dinner !

Eat until full full de.

Reach home then cut cake !

LOL WTH :x

Then later my face full of cream ( AGAIN ) .

Uncle face, sister face, mother face, my face.

All have !

Vids on fb I think o.o

Hurhur ! DAMN BLOODY FUN ! :D

I LOVE ALL OF MY FRIENDS WHO HAD FUN WITH ME !! :DD

<33333

2010-07-21T17:44:00.001+08:00

Remember please ):

I miss those times when everybody thought i was so important.

But then now everyone seems to have forgotten me.

Use your voice to drown out mine.
-

2010-07-16T17:22:00.002+08:00

HAHAHAHAHA

NO OFFENCE TWILIGHT FANS.

We're not going back to 2E2 anymore.

We won't be collecting any keys anymore.

which means ...

Omg -_-

LOL TODAY.

After school damn joke.

My finger got caught in the mpr4 the window.

Now blood clot there.

The skin never tear,

so no blood come out.

But can see blood.

+ one super long cut beside it.

Pain D:
LOL I hate school
it makes me injured -_-
I don't want go other classroom,
I want go back 2E2 classroom ):
All my books still there ._.
I feel old.
LOL WHY DO I FEEL OLD.
:L

Msn is awesome :x

Although it lags but

It's awesome :D

Msn-ing with kenny

I like friends where you can talk about many things

^^
Seriously I need more people to talk to over msn.
If not I'll die of boredom :L

Damn bored.

MY FINGER IS HURTING LIKE SHIT :x

I have given up the piano. I have given it up in my heart, I won't play the piano in front of anybody anymore. Nobody listens even when I do. Playing for no audience, what's the point? I can't play the piano. I have no right to play the piano.